Today I read Lesson 3 in “God Never Blinks”. The lesson is about harboring resentment and hatred in an all too common situation. The story was about a man who was a husband, father, and alcoholic. Mostly just an alcoholic. After 20 years (when their 3 kids were teenagers) they divorced. It had been 10 years since they’d seen him and 4 since they’d spoken with him when they got a call that he was terminally ill in the hospital. They go on to talk about how instantly they let go of the resentments. The mom took care of his medical, hospice, and then funeral bills and the kids momentarily got to reunite with him.
The part that spoke to me was when the author wrote a passage from the “Big Book” of Alcoholics Anonymous, “If you have resentment you want to be free of, if you will pray for the person or the thing that you resent, you will be free.
If you will ask in prayer for everything you want for yourself to be given to them, you will be free.
Ask for their health, their prosperity, their happiness, and you will be free.
Even when you don’t really want it for them, and your prayers are only words and you don’t mean it, go ahead and do it anyway. Do it every day for two weeks and you will find you have come to mean it and to want it for them, and you will realize that where you used to feel bitterness and resentment and hatred, you now feel compassionate understanding and love.”
This is so insightful really. The thing that is the most difficult to do for someone you dislike, resent, or even hate is the one thing that will free you from it. It makes sense though. If God is all that is love, care, mercy, and grace and the Devil is all that is hatred and all things negative, then it only makes sense that the Devil would make it more difficult for you to pray for them. He doesnt want you to pray for them. He doesnt want you to be God-like or even try to be. Thankful God gave us free will, so no matter how hard the Devil pushes us to harbor resentment we DO have the power to let it go, to forgive again, and to love even those who seem undeserving. After all arnt we all at times undeserving?